UPDATE

So the continuation of my dreaded Monday post is that my loved one got the results of her tests and the verdict................STAGE 4.  To those who don't know what this means, it means that you should basically pack your bags for a one way trip to Heaven.  Devastating is the understatement of the year.  What do we do, how am I/we suppose to feel.  Do we just give up, do we go with what the doctors say??? So many questions & feelings I couldn't put them all down if I wanted to!

Well this sweet special person informs me that she is not going anywhere, she has WAY to much life left, so the next step........hit the computer.  I have been looking at remedies, holistic, medical and any other idea I can find to help.  Believe it or not I found a lot of promising things, but mostly I am finding comfort in prayer.  I have been pouring my heart out to the Lord, asking for one of his tender mercies to save this amazing person.  To my greatest relief I have found some calmness in this raging storm.

She is my rock, she is still perky & laughing.  She is finding inner peace, her happy place.  Life has a whole new perspective.  She is determined to make her life count, to love & live every moment.  I am in quiet wonderment.  What an amazing example.  Thank you, thank you, for being part of my life.  I feel that there is much more happiness to come!

My Forever Blessings

So now that Christmas is right around the corner I thought I'd take a minute to show you my best christmas gift, my children.  They are perfect & flawed in so many wonderful ways.  I have had the amazing blessing of being awarded their lives, their spirits and their intense personalities.  I am truely the most blessed person on earth (at least I think so).  Thank you Heavenly Father for trusting me with these amazing little beings.

ENDURE until the end............

So as Monday's go........ I was right on track. Everyone woke up late, kids late to school, NOTHING could go smooth to save my life. So needless to say by this afternoon, I was exhausted. I was ready to call it a day and then I got the DREADED phone calls, you know the ones that make time stand still, the world quit spinning. Where it's hard to breath or think, or feel. Someone eternally close to me called to inform me that at a recent doctors visit they had found something that looked "bad" so they took a sample and sent it off to the lab.

And the results are back...................."CANCER" the worst word in the English language. All you can think is, "this isn't real", why, not them, not fair, what will I do without them???? The questions are just running through my brain. I am trying so hard to hold back the tears, this person is one of the single most important people in my life. Take someone else, not her!

Then this amazing person tells me it's going to be okay, we'll make it through. How can they be so strong? How is it even possible. So back to reality I come, telling her that I love her, and we'll get through it. We have to, she has so much life to live!

Then I pray, I pray harder than I have ever prayed. I call the temple to submit her name, and then I pray some more. It will be okay, I know it will.

So the moral to the story is, LOVE like it's the last time. NEVER hold back your feelings for someone you love. ALWAYS tell them you love them. FOREVER be faithful until the end.

I don't know what the future holds for me and this special lady, but I know that everyone that loves her so dearly will be right there with her, all the way, through thick and thin, because it's what we do for those we love. Prayer is the most powerful thing in the world, one of my favorite sayings is,

"When life gets to hard to stand, kneel!"

OKAYYYY

So I have to just have a vent minute to say that I admire anyone who has a company AND has EMPLOYEE'S......... we have had the privilege have having employee's and I can just say that it TOTALLY SUCKS. They are always whining, complaining, thinking that they are getting the bad end of things. Then you have to add to the fun when they decide that they aren't whining ENOUGH so they send their spouse after you. No matter what you do, how much you accommodate, give & take it in the shorts they will bad mouth you.

Even the employee's that you treated great, paid without question (after being burned by past employee's and them lying on what is owed to them) driving to there bank, making sure that they are taken care of and they STILL bad mouth you.

I just have to take comfort in KARMA, I hope that they receive 100 times what they gave. I just can't stand them, I hope that one day they TOO can be on the the receiving end of ungratefulness